Any guesses what my title signifies?
Yep…still waiting. But it’s okay. I wasn’t as upset as last time and I am just trying to go with the flow (no pun intended) and walk in faith. But back to the three parts of my post.
Cramps! Even after almost 6 months of having my cycle back, I am still not used to those suckers. Ow! I started yesterday morning and did not expect it to impact my early morning spin class at all. That was a mistake. I felt nauseous because of how bad I was cramping throughout the class. It was not fun. I survived, but why does being a woman have to hurt so bad? [Source]
After spin, I headed to lunch with Lindsey. Read about it here. Also, check out Lindsey’s blog! She got it up last night and I’m so excited she did. If you enjoy reading mine, I know you will love reading hers. She is one of the healthiest gals I know.
Once I left lunch, I knew the remainder of my Saturday was going to consist of things I vowed to do if I wasn’t pregnant this month. First up, a shopping spree! I mentioned before that I think one of the biggest things triggering negative self image for me right now is the fact that a lot of my summer clothes aren’t fitting comfortably. And I only have one pair of jeans I really feel flatter me these days. So I vowed to go shopping for clothes I feel good in and to pack away all of my size 2 pants that aren’t cutting it. The size may be two sizes bigger….but it is size healthy as Angela would say. And that is all that matters to me right now.
I went a little bit crazier than I anticipated and spent over $250. I didn’t feel guilty one bit because I know it is something that will make me more confident and happier overall. I already feel healthier…and sexier…and more confident just by wearing things that flatter me the most. I got a lot of cute things – 4 shirts, 2 pairs of jeans, 2 pairs of cargo capri pants, 1 pair jean capris, 2 pairs of shorts, 1 jean skirt, and 1 navy skirt. So I basically restocked the basic bottoms I needed for warmer weather.
Then I finished the night off with a delicious dinner. I have been craving sushi and we haven’t had a weekend night open to order it in awhile. We only order out on weekends for budget purposes. Last night I made sure we got some food from a favorite restaurant of ours. Moto serves both Chinese cuisine and sushi. I was craving a mix, so I just got a basic spicy tuna roll since it’s smaller. I wanted to sample some of Peter’s steamed chicken & veggies tossed in a sesame sauce and share some steamed potstickers in addition to the sushi. Plus, its cheaper than the fancy rolls I normally love. It worked out for a beautiful plate.
I think I ate all of that in about 2 minutes. Clearly, I enjoyed it. 😀
We finally ended the day with some feel good Friends episodes on DVD and icecream. And the best part of all of this is that while I enjoyed favorite foods, I didn’t eat just to eat or try to eat my emotions away. I still ate intuitively by having a green monster for breakfast because I wasn’t too hungry, the wrap + fruit for lunch because it sounded good, the sushi/Chinese plate for dinner because I craved it, and icecream because I was still hungry and wanted it. I think that was the best feeling. To know that I have grown in the past years and that I can handle disappointing days much better than before. I know I have the strength to make it through as long as I need to wait. God has helped me become this person and if he thinks I can handle it, I know I can. 🙂